Lily Collins Details Emotional Abuse She Said She Received From Ex-Boyfriend
Lily Collins, 33, mentioned she continues to be navigating the trauma of an emotionally abusive relationship from her early 20s.
The “Emily in Paris” star appeared on the “We Can Do Hard Things” podcast earlier this week and instructed host Glennon Doyle that she incessantly suffered panic assaults and extreme anxiousness. Collins mentioned her ex-boyfriend, whom she didn’t identify, belittled and insulted her.
“My romantic toxic relationship was a lot of verbal and emotional abuse and being made to feel very small,” Collins mentioned, earlier than mimicking her ex. “‘You should be Little Lily.’ He’d use awful words about me in terms of what I was wearing and would call me a whore.”
“There were awful words and then there were belittling words,” Collins continued. “I became quite silent and comfortable in silence and feeling like I had to make myself small to feel super safe.”
Collins performed a personality with anorexia in 2017’s “To the Bone” and revealed battling the consuming dysfunction herself in her 20s in a memoir later that 12 months. She instructed People it felt “like having my diary published,” and even wrote about her exes — considered one of whom nonetheless stands out.
“My skin was breaking out,” Collins instructed Doyle about the identical former boyfriend. “I was having these panic attacks and kidney infections … but I didn’t, at that time of my life, put two and two together. As your body is telling you, ‘This is not something you’re supposed to be in.’”
Collins mentioned she is far happier since tying the knot with filmmaker Charlie McDoproperly in 2021. She instructed Doyle her trauma “comes back like that” generally, however famous that McDoproperly truly cares about her well-being — and takes care of her when she wants it.
“When I’m in one of those moments, it is so clear to Charlie, who can read me like a book, and he calls it out in a moment,” mentioned Collins. “This is what healthy … communication can feel like. When someone can lovingly … help you … it may feel uncomfortable but it’s for the best.”
Need assist? In the U.S., name 1-866-331-9474 or textual content “loveis” to 22522 for the National Dating Abuse Helpline.
If you’re fighting an consuming dysfunction, name the National Eating Disorder Association hotline at 1-800-931-2237.